Staind - It's been a while

It's been awhile

Since I couldn't

Hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I first saw you

And it's been awhile

Since I could stand

On my own two feet again

And it's been awhile

Since I could call you

And all the things I can't remember

As ****ed up as it all may seem

The consequences that are rendered

I stretch myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile

Since I could say

That I wasn't addicted

It's been awhile

Since I could say

I loved myself as well

And it's been awhile

Since I've gone and

****ed things up

Just like I always do

And it's been awhile

But all that ****

Seems to disappear

When I'm with you

And everything I can remember

As ****ed up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

Have gone and ****ed things up again

Why must I feel this way?

Just make this go away

Just one more peaceful day

It's been awhile

Since I couldn't

Look at myself straight

And it's been awhile

Since I said, "I'm sorry"

And it's been awhile

Since I've seen the way

The candles light your face

And it's been awhile

But I can still remember

Just the way you taste

And everything I can remember

As ****ed up

As it all may seem to be

I know it's me

I cannot blame this on my father

He did the best he could for me

It's been awhile

Since I couldn't

Hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I said, "I'm sorry"